Back in 2005 my world was turned upside down. Working as an Insurance Agent in a local agency, I was an office manager and senior agent. I intended to purchase the agency I had worked for when the owner retired. I had my life all planned out, carefully detailed and pursuing it like it was the most important thing in the world. I pushed, earning insurance degree after insurance degree, trying to impress all the right people. I knew just what I wanted.
Surprise! Nope, that's not the plan at all, girl....
The next few years I struggled to put my life back together reaching for understanding of what happened and why. But apparently I hadn't learned all the lessons yet because in 2009 the rug was pulled out from under me all over again and after over 20 years of working at the same agency, I was done. What?! Really?!
I started my own insurance agency and things fell into place so smoothly, I thought....FINALLY, a break from struggling. Nope. Although I had clients and an income, I was learning about trusting and letting go. Yes, I am a wounded healer, meaning I'm here to help others who are going through crap too, and I had to go through it first and heal before I could help others heal. And yes, I'm still in the process.
Finally, I figured out that I am meant to help others heal. But how? Well, one day my spiritual guidance team decided it was time I understand more about my purpose and my hands started buzzing. Talk about freaking me out! I was guided to do some research about Reiki work. I pursued it with a passion thinking, FINALLY! THIS is what I'm here to do! Um. Nope. It was only a START of the adventure! Then, following a pattern I had started back in my insurance days, I acquired Master Reiki degree after Master Reiki degree (Usui, Tibetan, Chikara-Reiki-Do, Violet Flame, Imara, Gurdjief, Shri Laksya Artha...you get the idea). (None of these are used in my current work, by the way.)
Next, I came across an amethyst crystal that made my hands buzz.. Huh? Wait a minute, what is this? Did you know that an amethyst crystal is great to help a person with LETTING GO of root causes behind behaviors? And is also great for communication with spiritual guides? And for release of addictions? Hmmmm. Thus began my quest to learn all I could about crystals. When I held different crystals in my hand, they buzzed and made me feel different ways. And....true to form....I started collecting crystals.
Well, then I began working with others using the crystals. THERE! NOW I understand where I belong! Wrong again though. When I was working on a long distance client (meaning I was working with their energy...they were in Minnesota and I was in Vermont) I felt like I was being guided PHYSICALLY to move in specific ways. Talking about LETTING GO of control? I felt this spirit (Archangel Raphael) moving my arms and legs, moving me in certain ways to facilitate the healings even more. Then I was given visions as to what was happening, especially related to colors.
Colors. Ok. so THIS is what it's all about? Right? Nope. But let's go back to the colors for a minute. Most people are aware that colors relate to emotions, such as green with envy, red with anger, feeling blue. So now, my spiritual guidance was leading me to learn about color vibrations. Healing sessions progressed from Reiki energy, to include crystals, to physically being guided, giving me visions on a regular basis including color vibrations as well as scenes and pictures and channeling higher beings. It continues to amaze me where I am being led...continually forward. I think I finally get what the saying means about, it's not the destination, but journey that counts. I'm beginning to think that's accurate, that I'm not meant to arrive, but to continue to grow. (kinda like my collections?)
And while all this is going on, I am being healed in so many areas...so many areas that I need to let go of emotion, attachments, beliefs, past hurts, past patterns, and physical "stuff." It hasn't been easy or painless, I admit. Actually, it's been downright painful. Before I learned to remove "gunk" diseased portions from others energy, I had to learn to take it into my own body, even to the point of vomiting. Sounds fun, doesn't it? Not so much. I was more like a straw, the energies just flowed THROUGH me as a channel. Then came the day that I was working with a stroke victim and I was asked to pull out the sooted energy by taking it into my own being. (Did I mention he can walk now?) That's when I added the throw-up pail near the table. Before too long though, they showed me how to release the diseased portions directly, although that's not always how I'm directed, unfortunately.
I got to the point where I was tired of doing the insurance work and just wanted to focus on the healing work...despite the need for the throw-up pail. Low and behold, I relayed to my guidance team that I wanted an easy way out of the insurance scene so that I could concentrate on the healing work, and within a short period of time, the perfect solution came to light. I sold my agency and wondered, uh oh...what if...what IF it didn't work out financially? I mean, HOW could I really charge for the healing work enough to help feed my family and meet my financial obligations? I didn't know how, I still don't know how it is actually working. I'm learning not to worry quite so much about it though because something always comes up to help us out financially. One message I was given years ago was that as long as I helping people, I (my family) would be provided for. That has not failed...to this day. It's definitely a test of faith.
On my birthday last year, I decided to go to a healing expo out of town. Once again, my life was changed. The healing frequencies I was exposed to changed the way I work in the healing sessions. When I was exposed to them YET again, I knew I needed to work with them. So much to the point I decided to launch an experiment with them....to test them and see just WHAT they were capable of doing. But my spiritual guidance team was helping me out of course. However, the new frequencies are beyond what I had ever imagined! My very next "regular" client got a taste of the new frequencies unexpectedly. We were both amazed! Restless leg syndrome. Gone. Hip pain from 10 years ago, now he can walk up stairs straight! Blinding in left eye, now the spots have seriously diminished. A few testimonials can be found on the testimonials page (here on this website).
Where will I be led to next? I don't know. I DO know that back in 2005 before my world fell apart I was given a bible scripture saying that I was going to be led where I haven't gone before...and "who is blind, but my servant?" Did I mention that during the healing sessions my eyes are closed the whole time and I'm totally guided physically and with visions? Led? Yup. Blind? Yup again. The passage, by the way, is in Isaiah 42 if you want to look it up.
So that's my story. At least to today anyway...tomorrow? Who knows?!
6/21/12 update...ok, so I'm learning that the word "healing" doesn't accurately describe the new frequency I've been recently given to share with the world, and no THIS one is different from the one I mentioned above. It's my understanding this NEW frequency (6/2012) increases the amount of "light" in a persons body which can be a catalyst to many things including healing. But using the word "healing" only limits the abilities of the frequency and I certainly DON'T want to do that! We all have a vibrational frequency and this "light" work raises the frequency. Which is a very good thing indeed! Worry, fear, jealousy, hate...these are all low vibrational frequency energies. Whereas joy, happiness, laughter, pure love are high vibrational frequency energies. Which would YOU prefer to feel? LET GO of the low :)
6/2/14 update ...Now in addition to doing physical healing work with those frequencies, I've been trained to communicate with our spirit guides/guardian angels! Through psychic readings and types of sign language as well as direct channeling, I am able to understand connections between people better, understand life lessons and to help people understand their purpose in life...what they are here to do in this lifetime to be of service and for their own growth. Guess what mine is? To help others help themselves heal by relaying/mediating information I'm given from your Soul Support Team, your communications team as well as the physical healings. Let them help you understand the purpose of what you are going through and see beyond it. And see the resulting physical healing begin. Your mind is a powerful thing. Free your mind, and you free your body and soul.
10/7/2014 update...It turns out that the experience I had with my mother-in-law (who passed 10 years ago or so) when she came to me in spirit, showed me a picture of herself, and spoke in french to me (I'm not fluent in french) was helping me to understand that I am able to do mediumship work too. I did not know that being able to communicate with spirit like that was considered mediumship, and here I had been doing that without realizing it. A class I took helped me to understand better how to use this gift and expand on it. Can you imagine how interesting it was to have a conversation with my aunt who passed years ago and have her show me a picture of her barn and chickens in my mind to confirm it was her? That was only one piece of evidence she gave me that day. What about you? Wouldn't it change how you felt about life and death if you could talk with someone on the 'other side?' It just confirmed once again to me that we are spirit having an experience in a body, not just our body and life now. Makes me be able to see the higher perspective easier. It's about our soul growth.