When I first started on this path, I encountered several experiences where I felt like someone was moving my body - it was like they were moving and I was almost like a puppet from the inside. It didn’t scare me, it felt natural, like I was being overshadowed and guided by someone wanting to help me. I knew I could move on my own if I wanted to, and I tested that several times to be sure. But I also felt the absolute love from whomever it was (yes, I found out later who.)
I remember looking forward to feeling it again and again, so I would make a point to find some alone time and let it happen again. And I knew it would. But what did it mean?
When I started to feel ‘the presence’ I would notice how it would move my body into different positions. Moving my arms behind me, I would feel my muscles tighten and strengthen, then feel them release. My legs, I felt my knees bending and my arms going out in front of me and I would feel that position. That one, I was kept in for longer than I liked sometimes, but I knew it was good and helpful for my body. It was all about letting go and feeling ‘the presence’ and the movements.
Sometimes my hands would go around in circles over and over again, fast and then slow, around an area in front of my body. Then it would move to another place and do something similar. I had no idea, really, what was happening, but I loved the connection so much that I looked forward to more and more and more of it.
Then one day, I started to feel ‘the presence’ around me when I was with someone else and even though I know it looked strange, I allowed myself to explore what might happen if I did this around someone else.
The presence started moving my hands over and around the other person, like it had on me. And what’s more, the other person involved FELT something happening!
I didn’t know what it was, not really, but I tried to find out. Back then I don’t remember being able to ‘google’ something (yeah, I know, I’m dating myself - yes, I’m over 50!)
I looked up what I could and tried to make sense of what was happening. It was such a powerful awareness and experience, but what would be the outcome?
Then I learned there was something called “Reiki” and started researching this to see if that was what was happening. No, I understood the concept, but knew that wasn’t it. But it did waylay me into getting several Reiki Master certifications. Even though those didn’t feel quite right. I just knew that there was so much more that was happening! I could tell the frequencies apart. Somehow. I don’t know how, it was just a knowing.
One day I held an Amethyst crystal in my hand and was SHOCKED that I could feel it. So I explored a citrine crystal and went, what the heck?! So yeah, that began my collection of crystals. I could feel them. But you know what? Not every amethyst feels the same. Not all citrine crystals felt the same. They are like different personalities too. Oh boy. Sensory overload!
Then I realized, I could feel others emotions and pinpoint them. Um, and actually dissipate the energy when it was negative. And card energies somehow came to life right in front of me like mini-movies. Huh?! Again...somehow. I didn’t understand how. I mean, I’m just me. I know I have my own issues and insecurities. I know my many faults and hold them against myself just like everyone else does. So how am I able to do these things? Do you know what I mean? Have you felt that way too?
Looking back now, I see that all of these things were part of shaping my skill set of energy reading and frequencies. Even though I explored the various techniques and wondered if each of them was what I was here to do, I still felt called back and round again to the connection I felt early on. My first love.
It’s absolutely like a spiral, coming around again and again to the same place but each time with a deeper meaning. Where it will go from here, I’m not exactly sure, but I know the basic theme is the same.
Have you noticed that you revisit similar themes over and over again, but perhaps years apart? What would happen if you took the time to review your experiences and see if there was a theme, if you haven’t noticed?
They are things you do naturally but probably take for granted as though it’s the same for everyone. Is it? Or is it a gift or specialty of yours? Is it something that is meant to be shared or be of service to others, perhaps?
I’m sharing my experience in case it helps you to understand yourself a bit more and your path, your own personal journey and maybe help you connect the dots.
Notice the pattern that may be helping you hone your skills, share what you can, and we can all help each other along the way.
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Pamela talks about her journey through the messages given to her...all the doubt and worry that comes with the responsibility for the gifts given. Which in itself is ironic if you read the channeling from January 25, 2012!