8 years of my life gone, but at least NOW I understand.
About 8 years ago, I walked out leaving my key on the table and just had my work bag on my shoulder. No car, so I walked. And walked.
I left because I couldn't let any harm come to someone I loved so greatly. I couldn't do it. So I left to protect him. And found myself laying on the ground with a pillow and quilt from the church.
At that point I was homeless. No where to go. No one to turn to that would really understand what I was dealing with. No real way to feed myself or take a shower. And no clothes except what I was wearing.
Yeah, it felt pretty bleak. I was certainly at the lowest I had ever been in my life.
And it was unbearable. I was/am so incredibly sensitive! I just remember bawling until I was shaking....and then I went numb. I went numb. The numb was actually blissful in that moment because then I didn't have to feel all the pain and the fear.
Life went on and things changed, gratefully.
Only that numbness stayed as a program running in the background, like an automatic thermostat. Whenever I got too close to succeeding, or getting to a good point again, the numbness came back in one way or another.
So many mornings I would wake up with this heavy feeling and couldn't figure out why.
My life is good. I have an incredible relationship most only dream about. I'm living my purpose out loud and helping people. We've got a comfortable home and a getaway spot. I've got a brand new car. But the numbness program continued running in the background to keep me safe.
You see, not only do I hold space for others with this incredible frequency work, but I use it myself.
This weeks freedom frequency was around safety. Shocker, right?
Um yeah. So this stuff works.
Because today, I did not wake up with that numbness.
Now it is gone, where will I be able to take my work forward? How many more people will I be able to help through their own fears to shine their light more?
It's no longer holding me back.
What's holding you back?
The Freedom from Fear for Lightworkers Frequency Work Program may be your ticket to freedom...
Pamela talks about her journey through the messages given to her...all the doubt and worry that comes with the responsibility for the gifts given. Which in itself is ironic if you read the channeling from January 25, 2012!